Yesterday's visit with my sister involved Extraordinary Desserts. This time we both had the same thing--Pot de Creme. So rich. So chocolaty. So good. Good enough to inspire a sketchbook page.
First, let me say that I am not an Artist. I reserve that for those who have the experience, the knowledge and the discipline to create art every day. Instead, I consider myself a Creative. Being a Creative means I focus my energy on creativity and the creative process in its many forms. It has more to do with aligning myself with Creativity (with a capital C) than with mastering a particular discipline.
When it comes to drawing, I'm a doodler more than anything else. Scrap paper, backs of envelopes, Post It notes. Anything impermanent seems to work. And that's one reason I believe I have shied away from a sketchbook journal of any kind. It's much easier for me to let go when I don't have a big white page in front of me. (And that's true of writing as well as doodling.) Keeping a sketchbook and making it a habit is something that could free me from those apprehensive feelings.
Have you noticed something specific that holds you back? Or better yet, something specific that helps you move forward and explore creatively?
The something specific that holds me back is me. I seem to be in complete control of holding myself back. Silly, isn't it? When I want something really badly you would think I would just go for it. Instead I waddle in procrastination until I have proof of failure from not accomplishing what I longed to achieve rather than failing from not quite making the mark. Maybe that is my way of reassuring myself that I COULD have done it, rather than facing the scary realization that I can not. I am grateful to have this opportunity to not have a repeat performance, a chance to see what is on the other side of the mountain, a chance to face the "can not" squarely. We will find out once and for all. Carolina
ReplyDeleteI recognize in your words my own tendency to downplay talents. Be brave, you are off to a great start! I have been on a mission to cultivate fearlessness, but its tough and slow going. My number one fear - my $@&%! inner critic. That voice is always holding me back.
ReplyDeleteI love your drawing!! You really captured the picture. I would say you're Creative with a capital C and lots of exclaimation marks!!!! I feel as though time, or lack of, is what holds me back the most. I'm pretty good at having a go at things. I try not to be too critical of myself, as long as I do the best i can, and learn so next time I can do better.
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